For as long as I can remember I have always been on the "chubby" side. (I'm sure it was a lot cuter when I was little.) This has been the biggest trial in my life. Yes, some of you may think that I'm worldly for caring so much about my appearance but it's much more than that. I can't even count the attempted and failed diets, the blood test and trips to the doctor to see why after all my struggling and sometimes success why I was not even losing an ounce. Long story short, I started Weight Watchers in August and I am having success! For the first time in my life I'm on a "diet" and losing weight. I don't like calling it a diet though, it's more like changing your lifestyle. I didn't change what I ate, I only changed my portion sizes and I'm working on not binge eating or social eating. One thing I wish I could change is that I wish I could workout. I have had a herniated disc since May 2011 that causes horrible sciatica, which means no working out. I was mad at first because I thought I was just getting another trial but then I finally realized that what wrong isn't my fault or something I can change. So here I am and I can't believe that I'm doing this. I'm sharing on the internet everything I've tried to conceal for the past 19 years. Something I don't talk about with anybody. I'm excited to continue my journey though and hopefully inspire a few people on the way.